April202014

oh fuck. i need to write an essay for tomorrow… and i don’t remember how to access the requirement sheet on the school website D: and it’s in korean. fuck fuckfuck

what do i do

i’ll go to bed now, and wake up at nine because my class isn’t until 2

and then i can bother gabby D: sorry gabby 

and ask her to help me 

and then i’ll write it because i can knock that out in an hour

shit

i’m such a horrible student

fuck

i hate myself so much right now dammit

2PM

wulfbaby asked: In my program they insist that you take three studios. It's not bad.

what school do you go to?

2PM
takemeoutofthewalls:

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!!

takemeoutofthewalls:

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!!

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2PM

Ten Women I Have Been Warned Against Becoming:

1. The Girl Who Takes Up Too Much Space, always, her shoulders too wide in stairwells, her hips too big in doorways, her voice too loud in classes. This woman does not understand the art of crumbling, of curling herself tight like the spiral of a fern, soft, delicate, unwilling to reach out the ivy of her fingers to grasp onto what should rightfully be hers. This is a beast, an elephant, a moving mountain and she is capable of flattening you, she is capable of ruining you, she is capable of making you feel as small and insignificant in her life as she is supposed to be. You are this woman’s footnote to history, you are her side note in song lyrics, you are constantly interrupted by her with a witty joke you wish you thought of. I asked what the problem was with being a steamroller instead of a sunflower and I was laughed down.

2. The Beautiful One, the long hair or the slim waist or the pretty eyes or the lips like bowstrings. This woman looks good in everything because she’s confident in whatever you put her in. She’ll cut her hair short on you no matter how you like it, she’ll wear high heels and step on your opinions, she’ll look hot as hell no matter what size she is. See, the reason you can’t trust her is because women like this don’t need your permission, they’ll do as they please and get away with it. They’ll say no to you, over and over. Teach your daughters that beautiful means dangerous, teach them to distrust women who love themselves. Equate beautiful with vapid, equate pretty with stupid, take their power from them. Say they’re vain for their makeup, refuse to see them without it. These women are snakes, they are serpents. I said maybe the problem lies with you being unable to control yourself and was told to get off my pedestal.

3. A Bitch. Women are supposed to be ladies in the street but will tear skin under sheets. I’m told: Never raise your voice. Speak gently. Submit. Hold your opinion against your lips and when you admit to it, make sure it comes out as a butterfly wing suggestion. Don’t disagree. Don’t undermine someone else’s authority, regardless of whether or not they deserve your respect. Someone touches you, just move away from them. Don’t hit. Don’t talk back. Be like the ruins of Rome, only beautiful if you can’t hear your quiet death.

4. The Needy One. I have heard how others spit when they talk about how she gave you everything and you shoved it back down her throat until she choked on it, until she came back crawling and asked you what she did, until her palms and knees were scraped for want of just a little affection - never be this woman, I’m told, because she’s a joke and the joke is that she dared to have more emotion than you did. The truth is, I’m told, the one who cares less in a partnership is the one who wins. I didn’t know this was a competition.

5. The Cock Tease, certified stripper, how dare that girl look like that and not want me to sleep with her. Lust is always personified as a lady in red with a dress slit up her thigh. Lust is sinful because it’s power, it’s not asking for attention - it’s demanding it. I’m told she is the worst kind of woman, that looking good is supposed to be some kind of shame on her kin. I’m told not to leave the house in such a short skirt, not with a shirt so low, not with a lace back, not with high heels, not dressed like that. My lipstick can’t be too red, my hair can’t be too mussed, I can’t just “turn someone on like that and then leave them wanting.” I mentioned that instant gratification actually ruins our psyche and was told that being led on was “exhausting.” I said that there was a difference between purposefully tricking someone into liking you and just being attractive or friendly. I was told there’s also a difference between coffee and tea but both result in caffeine. I said, “I’ve been turned on in class by the girls I talk to but I didn’t expect anything from them,” and they said, “It’s different, you’re not a man,” but couldn’t explain where that difference was.

6. A Slut, obviously ruined by another person’s touch. It doesn’t matter how many people she’s actually been with, it’s all about the rumors she carries with her. Easy. Harlot. You’ll still try to get with her, you’ll still take her into your bed and kiss her and say things you don’t mean - but you’ll defame her name when you talk to your buddies. My father used to say “A slut is fine for the night, but the virgin is who you take home and marry.” Maybe he didn’t know he was teaching his daughter to hate her sexuality. Maybe he didn’t know that every time she’d be kissed, her whole system would shake until she felt ready to combust, shame and self-hatred shivering against her spine. Maybe he didn’t know she’d disconnect emotions and sex because he always told her, “Boys are different, they won’t care about you.” Nobody said to her that it was okay to experiment. See, the funny thing is, I’m a dancer so I know exactly where my center of gravity is. I know how hard I’ll fall in each direction. Yet out of fear of getting hurt, I won’t let a single person inside of my bed.

7. The Soulmate. Never love romance more than you love being cynical. Never show weakness, never like pink, never think maybe you might find someone nice and settle down with them. Someone will find you, I was told, And if you’re lucky, he’ll put up with you when you start getting old. Never be the woman who believes in happily ever after, never be dumb enough to think maybe someone could love you after all of your mistakes. It has nothing to do with whether or not a family is important to you and you’re in a good place where a relationship would make your life better - you’re not a princess. You don’t get married, you settle.

8. The Girl With Strength, who can outrun everyone and who is stronger than her boyfriend. “See the thing about boys,” says my daddy, “Is that you have to let them win.” I sat at home and read stories about Artemis and wanted to become the huntress, too. I wanted to howl at the moon, I wanted to slay the beasts that bested me, I wanted to rule my kingdom with bloody fists. But girls are never athletes, never supposed to be “built,” regardless of the fact civilizations were constructed on our spines and we made homes in war by the steel of our ribs. Never be strong. We are supposed to wilt.

9. The Lady CEO: because if you choose work over family, are you really a girl? How dare you fight your way to the top through every pair of eyes that bore through your blouse, through every meeting where you were hushed by the sound of someone else talking, through every time someone called you “sweetie,” how dare you yearn for something. Is your husband the stay-at-home one? I can’t imagine how that is going. He’s not a real man, after all. I don’t give it long before the divorce. How dare you decide you’re happy being single. Don’t you know you’re supposed to bear children. Where is your honor? Where is your wisdom? Who cares if you are the leader, the best suited for your position, the quickest-thinking, the one who makes the hardest clients come back again. Don’t you see? Across history, women have been terrible at success. They always lose their man in the end. (When I said, “I would rather be a famous author than a mediocre mother,” I was told, “No, don’t worry, you’ll be a fine mommy.”)

10. THE GIRL I AM: FIRECRACKER AND DON’T YOU FUCKING FORGET IT I’LL RIP YOU TO SHREDS AND I WON’T FUCKING REGRET IT I’M NOT YOUR PRETTY GIRL I’M NOT YOUR ANYTHING I’M PERFECT, MOTHERFUCKER, AND I’M NOT GOING TO GIVE UP WHAT I’M DOING. I DON’T WANT TO BE “LADYLIKE” THAT LITERALLY MEANS NOTHING I’M NOT GOING TO STOP STANDING UP AND DEMANDING WHAT’S COMING TO ME. I’M GONNA BE SOMEBODY. I’M GONNA MAKE THEM REMEMBER ME. I REFUSE TO BE OVERSHADOWED IN HISTORY. I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU WERE TRYING TO CREATE BUT YOU MADE ME A DRAGON YOU PUT ME IN THE FIRE AND WHEN I STOPPED BURNING I LEARNED HOW TO GLOW DON’T THINK YOU CAN STOP ME YOU CAN’T TAME A TORNADO.

In respectful response to a poem tilted, “Ten men women have warned me against becoming." /// r.i.d (via inkskinned)

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2PM

gaaahhhhh

i just started to seriously look at classes for fall and i’m for sure taking advanced metalsmithing

but then it was also suggested i take 1) upper levels art history 2) humanities 3) natural science 4) studio elective 5) intro to photo studio elective in addition to that. 

but if i take three studio classes… which right now the only ones that fit around metalsmithing that i am willing or interested in taking are throwing, sculpture, print matrix (can i even take that?), computer 3D modeling/animation, and professional design practices (which i don’t know if that counts as studio or what that is) 

… if i take three studio classes one of three things will happen. I will die from caffeine overdose/ lack of sleep, i will fail at least one of my lecture classes and get a poor grade in at least one studio, or i will get decent grades and a barely passable amount of sleep but i will have multiple mental breakdowns. and i do mean multiple. 

all of those things are very labor/time intensive. advanced metals by itself is already going to be a lot D: 

last semester i had two metalsmithing classes and an intro to ceramics class along with a humanites and art history. i couldn’t finish two projects, both in metals, and i WILL NOT have that happen again. i got decent grades in art history and humanities, but i was so sleep deprived i couldn’t stay awake in the lectures even if i had 3 cups of coffee prior to going. and i had at least 4 nights where i didn’t sleep. and i don’t know how many nights i left after midnight. hell, after 3am.. i was so stressed out and i felt like shit about my projects because i couldn’t get them done on time. 

so i really REALLY reaaally want to avoid 3 studios because i highly doubt i am capable of doing that amount of work. but

part of me wants to take three studios for the credit hours. and because i feel like it’s lazy to just do what you know you can get away with…. but i feel like 3 is really an awful idea. 

but maybe it was also because i was too social last semester? i did have at least one or two days out of the week where i did less than what i knew i could have been doing. but is that really going to change? ughhh i don’t know

ugh i don’t know. i feel like it’s a cop out to not take three. fuck. FUCK.

what do you think? fellow art majors or people who have heavy class loads? please give me advice :( i’m really bad at making decisions like this. help

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Bother My Askbox?

  • 1: What color are your socks?
  • 2: Have you ever lied about your age? Why?
  • 3: What is something you regret in the past month?
  • 4: Do you believe in love at first sight?
  • 5: When was the last time you wrote someone a letter on paper?
  • 6: How old were you when you first learned how to ride a bike? Who taught you?
  • 7: Do you get along with your parents? Why or why not?
  • 8: What’s your favorite season?
  • 9: Do you currently like someone?
  • 10: Have you ever used an Ouija board?
  • 11: What’s the last song you sang?
  • 12: What’s your favorite scent?
  • 13: What’s your favorite urban legend?
  • 14: What’s a bad habit that you have?
  • 15: What’s a strange habit that you have?
  • 16: What’s the first instrument that you learned to play?
  • 17: How would you describe your ‘type?’
  • 18: Would you rather stay in or go out?
  • 19: What was the last thing you said to your mom?
  • 20: Do you want to get married someday?
  • 21: Have you ever snuck out?
  • 22: Can you sing well?
  • 23: What’s an embarrassing thing that happened this week?
  • 24: When was the last time you went sledding?
  • 25: Have you ever/do you liked someone you know you can never be with?
  • 26: Do people often mispronounce your name?
  • 27: Would you like to live in another country?
  • 28: Do you like to watch ghost-hunting shows?
  • 29: Who was the last person you said you loved to?
  • 30: What’s something you’d like to be better at?
  • 31: Have you ever stayed up to talk to someone who was sad?
  • 32: What was the last thing you cooked?
  • 33: Do you think you would make a good parent?
  • 34: Do you have trouble sleeping at night?
  • 35: Where is your best friend right now?
  • 36: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
  • 37: How late do you usually stay up at night?
  • 38: When was the last time you cried and why?
  • 39: Have you ever won a contest?
  • 40: Can you draw well?
  • 41: Would you ever date someone you met on Tumblr/the internet?
  • 42: What was the last thing you ate?
  • 43: Do you think you’re/you’d make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
  • 44: Have you ever had a near-death experience?
  • 45: What do you think people think of you?
  • 46: What is your middle name and do you like it?
  • 47: Are you close with either of your parents?
  • 48: Do you like yourself?
  • 49: State five facts about your appearance –
  • 50: State five facts about your personality –
10AM
10AM
holavicente:

How to fuck with anime fans:
Step 1) put a wig on your dog
Step 2)

NO

holavicente:

How to fuck with anime fans:

Step 1) put a wig on your dog

Step 2)

NO

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10AM

noxious-bloom:

Fall Out Boy | Grand Theft Autumn/Where Is Your Boy (Acoustic)

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9AM

adventure time doodles :) 

9AM

feeling very fall out boy and also i'm bored so...

  • Growing up: What do you want to do when you're older?
  • Honorable mention: Ever been someone's second choice?
  • Grand theft autumn: Ever been "the other guy/girl"?
  • Grenade jumper: A friend who's always been there for you.
  • Saturday: Something you've always wanted to do?
  • I've got a dark alley and a bad idea...: Ever stayed in a dead relationship?
  • Nobody puts baby in the corner: Any serious romantic endeavors not many other people know about?
  • Dance, dance: Talk about the person you are currently interested in.
  • Snitches and talkers get stitches and walkers: Share a secret.
  • Thriller: What's a difficult obstacle you've overcome?
  • The (after) life of the party: Hardest drug you've done.
  • Golden: How do you think the world sees you?
  • This ain't a scene it's an arms race: How do you feel about the music industry?
  • Lake effect kid: Where did you grow up?
  • Alpha dog: What's something you're good at?
  • I don't care: Do you need attention?
  • Headfirst slide into cooperstown on a bad bet: Someone you admire/envy.
  • West coast smoker: Would you consider yourself emotionally stable?
  • Just one yesterday: What makes you feel nostalgic?
  • My songs know what you did in the dark: Ever lied about yourself for the sake of acceptance?
  • Young volcanoes: What helps you forget your troubles?
  • Save rock and roll: Something you believe in that many others have given up on.
9AM

foggypebble:

I Don’t Care - Fall Out Boy

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